This is what my experiences have taught me in the recent past... I intend to keep updating this....It'll be interesting to look back and see how much I've grown...
I've learned The power of "Ya Ali madad"....
I've learned that true wisdom is in my religion......
I've learned that I can do whatever i want.......
I've learned life is way better when married....
I've learned Hyder senses my mood swings before I myself do..
I've learned Hyder knows whats on my mind before I do...
I've learned Allah loves me more than I can imagine.....
I've learned no matter what people say having faith in your dreams is all you need to achieve them....
I've learned being lazy initially is great fun!
I've learned that I am way older than my friends my age....
I've learned that i have to keep learning......
I've learned that being friendly with people will always have positive energy around me...
I've learned Jihad gets more difficult everyday.....
I've learned when you pray for whats best to happen you have to be insanely patient.....
I've learned the importance of keeping busy always....
Syeda Hyder, 19
Friday, November 14, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Show me the green....
I still remember my first pay cheque
The money the happines for my life that was wrecked.
I bought my fav mobile and gave the rest
To mom and the poor because i was blessed.
As months went on and so did life
I bought a car, an aparment a whole new life,
Pubbing and partying was very important
Something mom and dad never understood
I had no tension, because i had everything
All my time i did whatever I willed.
Till i realized that my mom was ill,
Not because of any disease but of my getting rich.
She was sick of my late hours and my gifts
She wanted peace and NOT my gifts
She said she searched everywhere to find me
When i was with her, as I thought I did.
My money could not save her from her illness,
And i could'nt leave the life i was living,
How could i give up my car, My pride?
How could i give up my apartment, my life?
Mom wanted a peice of my time,
Something sadly my money couldn't buy
My green made her green,
which made me blue
I could'nt understand something so true!
I wanted to spend time, but then i'd have to give up
On all i worked hard for and to live lower.
I had become someonle else,
My choices changed, my priorities changed
My aim changed, My life changed.
Mom sadly died, and the funeral was lavish
And now I undersatnd why
My green made her green
Though it still makes me blue!
And some still can't understand something so true!
Syeda Hyder, 19
The money the happines for my life that was wrecked.
I bought my fav mobile and gave the rest
To mom and the poor because i was blessed.
As months went on and so did life
I bought a car, an aparment a whole new life,
Pubbing and partying was very important
Something mom and dad never understood
I had no tension, because i had everything
All my time i did whatever I willed.
Till i realized that my mom was ill,
Not because of any disease but of my getting rich.
She was sick of my late hours and my gifts
She wanted peace and NOT my gifts
She said she searched everywhere to find me
When i was with her, as I thought I did.
My money could not save her from her illness,
And i could'nt leave the life i was living,
How could i give up my car, My pride?
How could i give up my apartment, my life?
Mom wanted a peice of my time,
Something sadly my money couldn't buy
My green made her green,
which made me blue
I could'nt understand something so true!
I wanted to spend time, but then i'd have to give up
On all i worked hard for and to live lower.
I had become someonle else,
My choices changed, my priorities changed
My aim changed, My life changed.
Mom sadly died, and the funeral was lavish
And now I undersatnd why
My green made her green
Though it still makes me blue!
And some still can't understand something so true!
Syeda Hyder, 19
How come...
How come there is the loss of innocence when out of school
Things seem so wrong, and I do have a clue!
What was fun then is not fun now.
Have we really grown up or we pretend to be
Fun was a whole different book with a whole different story
The time when a free class was a blessing
Now seems to be of relief of no reason.
Clubbing and pubbing is the new trend
When once it was just the ankle socks and a tiny rule bend.
The laugh that was innocent is now more flirtatious
The aim of life has somehow changed
Have we really grown that older or just being someone else?
How come the pretty dress is now aimed for seducing?
Are we who we are now or who we were then?
One of them is not the true self I comprehend
Is the freedom getting to us at some point?
Have we lost our way from what’s right?
I fail to understand this change
Maybe I’m not so flexible in that sense
But what I see and what I feel are true feelings
What I know of then and what I know of now is what I’m writing.
The difference I see is not negligible
The feeling I feel is not absorbable
The freedom in life is now amazing
The will to achieve goals is not sleeping
“Positively“ things are moving faster than they should
Yet somehow we’d all go back to school if we could!
Syeda Hyder, 19
Things seem so wrong, and I do have a clue!
What was fun then is not fun now.
Have we really grown up or we pretend to be
Fun was a whole different book with a whole different story
The time when a free class was a blessing
Now seems to be of relief of no reason.
Clubbing and pubbing is the new trend
When once it was just the ankle socks and a tiny rule bend.
The laugh that was innocent is now more flirtatious
The aim of life has somehow changed
Have we really grown that older or just being someone else?
How come the pretty dress is now aimed for seducing?
Are we who we are now or who we were then?
One of them is not the true self I comprehend
Is the freedom getting to us at some point?
Have we lost our way from what’s right?
I fail to understand this change
Maybe I’m not so flexible in that sense
But what I see and what I feel are true feelings
What I know of then and what I know of now is what I’m writing.
The difference I see is not negligible
The feeling I feel is not absorbable
The freedom in life is now amazing
The will to achieve goals is not sleeping
“Positively“ things are moving faster than they should
Yet somehow we’d all go back to school if we could!
Syeda Hyder, 19
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Blurry
Why is it that people lose a part of themselves when they get busy with anything?
When does something that was so clear become blurry and grey?
How does it become difficult to live on your principles?
How does so much change take place?
Sad it is when with realization you commit the same mistakes
Sad it is when the realization of that too doesn't help!
Loneliness and peace of mind get you back to the ground,
But tomorrow morning you'll be oblivious to whats around.
Keeping busy, keeping productive we live our lives
But then we forget our roots and become very unkind.
We become slaves of books written by Human beings
Their ideologies instead of the religions.
Sad becomes our life and it'll soon also be late
Till we realize what we've lost in this worlds race.
The guilt that we live with, the guilt that we hide
Need not suffocate us till we die.
With peace of mind and peace of our souls
We can make everything right with self-control.
What we need is constant reminders
We can change our lives and chase our fears.
Blurriness is the fault of the eye,
We should quit blaming others and take a stride.
Keep a clear vision of whats right
Of whats the truth and where we lie.
Syeda Hyder, 19
When does something that was so clear become blurry and grey?
How does it become difficult to live on your principles?
How does so much change take place?
Sad it is when with realization you commit the same mistakes
Sad it is when the realization of that too doesn't help!
Loneliness and peace of mind get you back to the ground,
But tomorrow morning you'll be oblivious to whats around.
Keeping busy, keeping productive we live our lives
But then we forget our roots and become very unkind.
We become slaves of books written by Human beings
Their ideologies instead of the religions.
Sad becomes our life and it'll soon also be late
Till we realize what we've lost in this worlds race.
The guilt that we live with, the guilt that we hide
Need not suffocate us till we die.
With peace of mind and peace of our souls
We can make everything right with self-control.
What we need is constant reminders
We can change our lives and chase our fears.
Blurriness is the fault of the eye,
We should quit blaming others and take a stride.
Keep a clear vision of whats right
Of whats the truth and where we lie.
Syeda Hyder, 19
Thought for the day archive. November
November 6th: "Sadly everything Ironic in life is for the positive" Syeda Hyder, 19
November 27th: "I never realized how much my life was dependent on the computer till it got screwed" Syeda Hyder, 19
November 28th: " If i appear to you as delusional as you do to me, we have a big problem"
Syeda Hyder, 19
November 27th: "I never realized how much my life was dependent on the computer till it got screwed" Syeda Hyder, 19
November 28th: " If i appear to you as delusional as you do to me, we have a big problem"
Syeda Hyder, 19
Friday, May 16, 2008
Talk about yourselves, NOT others!
When i had first heard that people love talking about themselves i realized that's not completely true.
If people were really into themselves, they wouldn't be so concerned about who wore the wrong dress, or whose makeup was bad,or whose name to spoil for absolutely no reason.
The only people in the world who i believe talk about themselves are the people who are living a productive life. Because they work hard, are proud of their achievements and would love to flaunt that, they couldn't care less about where their cousin goes, or how much grade a friend gets or who's going out with whom. They don't have time for petty things like fishing out the dirt of someone else's life, and making it public just to ruin their reputation for time pass.The people who talk crap I think do so because they're bored of their lives and have no creative brain cells left to improve themselves and their lives, so instead they use their creativity to make false stories about random people or pass judgments about them.I don't know what pleasure one can get in that! seriously!!!
Whenever i hear that women were made to gossip or that it's their thing i can't help but disagree. I don't think women were born to gossip i think women have way better things to talk about than someone else, they just haven't realized it. Men aren't any less when it comes to talking about people behind their backs, they just don't do it as often because they constantly have something going on in their lives they can talk about.
sad part about all this is you don't even realize when you git sucked into this hole of backbiting and gossiping. You're casually talking to your friend and the next thing you know the conversation is lead into a whole different direction and the person in that direction is not someone you even know, or have seen!!.You just unknowingly end up supporting that persons habit of talking bad.
Voicing opinions is cool! but do it in a just manner, if you don't know crap about a person you have no right to make statements about them that are false or to even doubt them. You have no right to make them appear bad in front of someone else, when no one has asked for your esteemed opinion just keep it to yourself and sleep. Talking insane s**t is not at all cool. No one likes to be talked about behind their back, yet they want to talk about everyone else. I LOVE talking about myself, and the way things are going these days i rather be labeled as 'self centered' than live with the guilt of ruining someones life by speaking false about them behind their back.
I think once people start talking about themselves they'd realize how unproductive they are and how much time and energy they waste, all to reach hell!. When in the end of the day you have nothing interesting to tell about yourself, you will take the initiative to make something out of yourself that is beneficial in the right way for you, your family & friends.
Syeda Fatima ,18
If people were really into themselves, they wouldn't be so concerned about who wore the wrong dress, or whose makeup was bad,or whose name to spoil for absolutely no reason.
The only people in the world who i believe talk about themselves are the people who are living a productive life. Because they work hard, are proud of their achievements and would love to flaunt that, they couldn't care less about where their cousin goes, or how much grade a friend gets or who's going out with whom. They don't have time for petty things like fishing out the dirt of someone else's life, and making it public just to ruin their reputation for time pass.The people who talk crap I think do so because they're bored of their lives and have no creative brain cells left to improve themselves and their lives, so instead they use their creativity to make false stories about random people or pass judgments about them.I don't know what pleasure one can get in that! seriously!!!
Whenever i hear that women were made to gossip or that it's their thing i can't help but disagree. I don't think women were born to gossip i think women have way better things to talk about than someone else, they just haven't realized it. Men aren't any less when it comes to talking about people behind their backs, they just don't do it as often because they constantly have something going on in their lives they can talk about.
sad part about all this is you don't even realize when you git sucked into this hole of backbiting and gossiping. You're casually talking to your friend and the next thing you know the conversation is lead into a whole different direction and the person in that direction is not someone you even know, or have seen!!.You just unknowingly end up supporting that persons habit of talking bad.
Voicing opinions is cool! but do it in a just manner, if you don't know crap about a person you have no right to make statements about them that are false or to even doubt them. You have no right to make them appear bad in front of someone else, when no one has asked for your esteemed opinion just keep it to yourself and sleep. Talking insane s**t is not at all cool. No one likes to be talked about behind their back, yet they want to talk about everyone else. I LOVE talking about myself, and the way things are going these days i rather be labeled as 'self centered' than live with the guilt of ruining someones life by speaking false about them behind their back.
I think once people start talking about themselves they'd realize how unproductive they are and how much time and energy they waste, all to reach hell!. When in the end of the day you have nothing interesting to tell about yourself, you will take the initiative to make something out of yourself that is beneficial in the right way for you, your family & friends.
Syeda Fatima ,18
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Thought for the day archive. May
May 2nd: "All that glitters is not gold. Sometimes it can be diamonds" Syeda Fatima,18
May 5th: "Thinking too much as much as i hate it, is a hobby of mine transfered genetically" Syeda Fatima,18
May 6th: "When you come across a way to tackle a situation try to get to the logic of it of why that solution worked, Because the same logic can be applied to solve various other problems" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 10th: "Every time you say 'i know the solution to this problem' think if you've lived this problem today in this state mentally physically and emotionally" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 13th: "Sometimes not realising or searching for the extent of damage is the starting point of the healing process" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 14th: "Too much Project Runway makes me think and talk like a gay man!" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 15th: "I always thought people loved talking about themselves, but strangely it's the opposite in hyderabad. People tend to talk more & often wrong about individuals they havent even met! or seen!!" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 16th: "if you want to sit and complain u can find faults in heaven also" Syeda Fatima,18
May 5th: "Thinking too much as much as i hate it, is a hobby of mine transfered genetically" Syeda Fatima,18
May 6th: "When you come across a way to tackle a situation try to get to the logic of it of why that solution worked, Because the same logic can be applied to solve various other problems" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 10th: "Every time you say 'i know the solution to this problem' think if you've lived this problem today in this state mentally physically and emotionally" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 13th: "Sometimes not realising or searching for the extent of damage is the starting point of the healing process" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 14th: "Too much Project Runway makes me think and talk like a gay man!" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 15th: "I always thought people loved talking about themselves, but strangely it's the opposite in hyderabad. People tend to talk more & often wrong about individuals they havent even met! or seen!!" Syeda Fatima, 18
May 16th: "if you want to sit and complain u can find faults in heaven also" Syeda Fatima,18
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Thought for the day archive. March
March 3rd: "Cleaning is like knowledge 'there's no end to it' " Syeda Fatima,18
March 5th: "If I'm not online it's because I'm bored of it,, sadly not cause I have better things to do!" Syeda Fatima, 18
March13th: "I'm a lab rat, I'm being experimented on to prove that man aint a social animal!". Syeda Fatima,18
March 5th: "If I'm not online it's because I'm bored of it,, sadly not cause I have better things to do!" Syeda Fatima, 18
March13th: "I'm a lab rat, I'm being experimented on to prove that man aint a social animal!". Syeda Fatima,18
Saturday, February 2, 2008
thought for the day archive.February.
2nd February : "there is no point making a change for someone when they aren't able to witness it.Which makes it all the more important to not expect any appreciation from them".
Syeda Fatima,18
3rd February:"Why is it that whenever you're chatting with someone and the messages stop going; it just so happens that the message that always goes is "are you not getting my messages?"!!" Syeda Fatima,18
4th February :"when i look back at my important school years, i cant help but believe i would've done wonders if i wasn't constantly overcome by depression, anxiety or both, without them coming in my way i would've had my head straight and focussed on my aim. However i have no regrets because i learnt a valuable lesson of not getting sidetracked by things that seem important but aren't and always keep reminding myself of the ultimate goal. In the end of the day no one wants to achieve it as much as me." Syeda Fatima,18
5th February: "People are so used to talking about their problems that they've forgotten that a thing called "solution" also exists!!. Syeda Fatima,18
7th February: "It's very easy to hold on to what is difficult to leave, but one should be able to keep their adult peer pressure aside and do what they ought to." Syeda Fatima,18
10th February:" One should always go ahead and do what they feel like doing that very day, 'cos tomorrow you'd just regret not having the same feeling!". Syeda Fatima,18
12th February:"One should never use their background as an excuse to not do better and whats right in life ". Syeda Fatima, 18
13th February: "Under my life's normal circumstances I'm PMSing through out the month!". Syeda Fatima, 18
14th February :"Sometimes people make it way to difficult for someone to approach them and talk some sense into their head". SYeda Fatima, 18
19th February: "A person who doesn't remember his own birthday can't be blamed for not remembering anyone else's. He is most definitely messed up!." Syeda Fatima,18
Syeda Fatima,18
3rd February:"Why is it that whenever you're chatting with someone and the messages stop going; it just so happens that the message that always goes is "are you not getting my messages?"!!" Syeda Fatima,18
4th February :"when i look back at my important school years, i cant help but believe i would've done wonders if i wasn't constantly overcome by depression, anxiety or both, without them coming in my way i would've had my head straight and focussed on my aim. However i have no regrets because i learnt a valuable lesson of not getting sidetracked by things that seem important but aren't and always keep reminding myself of the ultimate goal. In the end of the day no one wants to achieve it as much as me." Syeda Fatima,18
5th February: "People are so used to talking about their problems that they've forgotten that a thing called "solution" also exists!!. Syeda Fatima,18
7th February: "It's very easy to hold on to what is difficult to leave, but one should be able to keep their adult peer pressure aside and do what they ought to." Syeda Fatima,18
10th February:" One should always go ahead and do what they feel like doing that very day, 'cos tomorrow you'd just regret not having the same feeling!". Syeda Fatima,18
12th February:"One should never use their background as an excuse to not do better and whats right in life ". Syeda Fatima, 18
13th February: "Under my life's normal circumstances I'm PMSing through out the month!". Syeda Fatima, 18
14th February :"Sometimes people make it way to difficult for someone to approach them and talk some sense into their head". SYeda Fatima, 18
19th February: "A person who doesn't remember his own birthday can't be blamed for not remembering anyone else's. He is most definitely messed up!." Syeda Fatima,18
Thursday, January 10, 2008
thought for the day archive. January
9th January: "learn to appreciate the traits u have in order to be able to appreciate them in other people" Syeda Fatima, 18
23rd January: "If in my life I'd ever get a chance to stay alone for even a month, i would never get married and want to live with anyone other than me" Syeda Fatima, 18
24th January: "I can't wait to get to heaven to enjoy the life i'm avoiding on earth!" Syeda Fatima, 18
25th January: "The thing about my life & the way I like to live it, is that i can't bear it getting monotonous & it's easier to make a change when you're alone rather than it having to be made by anyone other than you, for your sake" Syeda Fatima, 18
23rd January: "If in my life I'd ever get a chance to stay alone for even a month, i would never get married and want to live with anyone other than me" Syeda Fatima, 18
24th January: "I can't wait to get to heaven to enjoy the life i'm avoiding on earth!" Syeda Fatima, 18
25th January: "The thing about my life & the way I like to live it, is that i can't bear it getting monotonous & it's easier to make a change when you're alone rather than it having to be made by anyone other than you, for your sake" Syeda Fatima, 18
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