Hmmm.....this is more like a diary entry than anything, and since no one really reads my blog i can give away the pin to my ATM card and not a penny would be missing!...
ha! how boring!..I could very well make a diary entry in my "actual" dairy...but i guess im too lazy to write....how typical of me!........besides im waiting for grey's anatomy to buffer on youtube...and i jus wanted to type....
yeah thats it...i want to type!.......im losing it...haven't gotten allot of sleep since yesterday and i think it's takign a toll on me....but do i care? hell no!!
so whats happening with my life.....sometimes i really wonder why somethings in life have soo much to wodnr about...and knowing wondring and thinking and not sleeping nights is nto going to get you anywhere....i find it soothing.....it gives me answers, sometimes it gets me anxious...but either way i do like to wonder and won't give it up....tho i try to sometimes when it gets out of controll and rather negative for my psyche.....
But do i care? No do i want to? Yes!....
So what do i do?......i take a deep breath and jus wonder...think and think and then think again......
i wonder how life would be without all my wondering....i think god leaves soo much to us for wondering and wishing and hoping and praying that it spices up life.....not knowing whats going to happen is fun...not havign control over every second of your life is freedom....not realizing hwo dumb you are is a blessing.....realising how dumb everyone else is is an ego boost......all this makes me wonder if everything was happening for no other reason but for me to wonder endless hours about it.......
I have officially lost it...though i know somewhere inbetween my lines i made sense........!
thats me!......
Behold!
