Trust

Trust

you saw me walking on a lonely street

you saw the tears, that i was shedding

you looked and smiled, and said take my hand

you held me close and gave me a ride.

you promised love and allot of other things

you made me happy, u taught me to swim

you comforted me and gave me rest

you took me home but then just left.

you left me confused back on the streets

you left me with questions, cheated and deceived

you broke your promises, and were never mine

you ran away and took you're time.

confused i walk these streets again

the tears i weep leave a trail

trust is not a word in my vocabulary

i dont seem to understand tht word, and i'm not sure if i'm sorry..

syeda fatima, 17

are you ready to know about the world?? (article)

This is a typical morning of a 'sane' individual in today's world, these are the tasks he/she would perform:
brushing their teeth
having breakfast
getting ready for work or whatever
reading the newspaper or taking the newspaper along ( because you HAVE to know about the world don't you?!!)

Lets pause that persons day right there and just focus on the importance of reading the news paper. Why does one read the newspaper? to know whats happening around the world. what is a newspaper? a bunch of sheets that have the news of whatever happening across the world printed on them. These are the only reasons to why anyone actually purchases these black and white printed sheets of papers with world news filled crap in them. But have you once asked yourself whether if you are prepared to know about the world? or whether if you know yourself well enough to be bothered about the issues of other people and the world?

Yes you read right! and i see you're sane because you have decided to continue reading on. This is what i believe the only person who has the right to read the news paper and acknowledge himself about the world is a person who knows himself first, because that is more important than anything else. i feel its very wrong for anyone to pay to know about the world and actually give a very considerable part of their own time into knowing about everything but yourself!. Think about it.

If one would invest just that much energy, curiosity, time and money into themselves then they would be amazed at what discoveries they could make about themselves that they have taken for granted. The major reason to problems nowadays is that the people don't know themselves well enough to even judge their behavior, allot of personality problems or 'issues' could be solved if one took time out to just peep into their own souls and understand what sort of a person they are and focus more on their family, their neighbors, their religion and faith etc. this will lead to not only a satisfying introspect to one self but also a clearer vision of ones soul and beliefs and also that of their loved ones and the people who actually matter and should matter.

Its very easy to sit back every day with a hot cup of coffee and judge the lives and the doings of the people of the world, and gossip about them and basically waste your own time and also the time of the person who's actually listening to your long endless and pointless views after all these are the people you haven't even met, people who don't even know you exist. But only a real human being can sit and judge himself and find out a mistake on their part and try to better himself and accept the reality of his/her personality, which would eventually lead to a more productive life on an individual basis.Its important in todays time for one to be very well versed with their talents and capabilities because that is what would help them grow as a human being, which as we all know n endlessly preach is very crucial. Being aware of the world n totally oblivious to oneself is not the way to lead a life, that life is very plastic n unsatisfying which many of us may not realize, but that is the reality- a reality its high time for us to accept!.

being aware of what is happening in the world around you is a very important thing in today's world, you have to know how the earth is doing, how the other people in the world are surviving, how mean or how kind some people can be. But not at the cost of never knowing yourself and benefiting the people around you , the people who might not make the headlines of even the local news paper but will of your life and your heart!

Syeda Fatima, 17

The REAL Problem of life... (article)

The REAL Problem of life

Sometimes its amazing how you think you have the control over your life , when u just don't.Just when you woke up one Monday morning thinking 'today's my day, and it's going to be this way forever and that nothing can stop me from getting what i want' you realised that you were stuffing nothing but a bunch of motivational crap into your head!!.

And that's a fact a reality bite the irony of life that is true and everyone has to face it. the issue now is how to face it, and not crib. some people just cry, some people lose all hope and walk around saying things like "god hates me" or "why does my life have to be like this", some sing songs that you've never heard of songs you never imagined existed "how could this happen to me, i made my mistakes got nowhere to run..." K now wait there's a genre called blues but this is down right crappy. And then there are the cursers, you can be totally surprised as to their knowledge of fowl words and damn the languages i say its a talent, and there are two types in this category:

1. the whisperers- they wont say it out loud but will lip sink their way to hell they sound like this with a lot of mouth shaking " , ....... ****** !!!!! ".yes that's the way they are not to forget the beautiful expression of total patheticity on their face.
2. the loud mouthed weirdos- they don't care about who is listening to them or what they're thinking they just want to get over their sad day or days or months or yrs by just walking around expressing their feelings they go like this, "what f**** is wrong with the f***ing world bloody stupid b****es in my life and them dogs who just can't f***ing f****, f**** them bloody, ass****s, beeeeeeeeeep" (its difficult putting such tiny stars n keeping a count of the letters)

That was a brief description of the more darker sided people and then there are the humorous people who just wont stop laughing when tragedy knocks on their door, they just want to laugh with minor tears, mild depression, a few bad words here and there, and here's the best part the icing of the cake the sarcastic commentary of their life. "no i wanted to have kids na! i was bloody born to have kids wanted 1 just one how many did i get 3 and that too all together with no installment bloody f***ing hell, how excited am i!!. I'm sure god is very happy he wanted to gift me with three oh lookie my smile the smile of the millennium!!" mind you this is all said breathlessly which makes the people hearing the story enjoy it even more!!! ( oh common admit it you love it when people go that crazy)

The problem is still not those people, the problem are these ironic situations of life, but then again just knowing the problem is a problem in itself, the solution is what we are supposed to be looking for. Half the reason to the sad lives of people are that they don't think finding a solution is the key to happiness rather than just sitting and cribbing over the same issues and pouring your heart out to other people.( who by the way if u haven't noticed, are going through the same things!! and wouldn't care less about you!!)

Then what is to be done? simple, find out whats actually bothering you, and start analyzing the situation and see if there was any (even the tiniest) fault of yours, and if there was then get a life and stop blaming the world for what happened, try to work on yourself and soon you'll feel good. No point trying to take revenge when you yourself are at fault. Trust me this works because everyone makes mistakes and its always easy to blame the other person for whatever happens. But if one tries to perfect their own character and thinking as much as possible you can a much happier life, because every time you make a mistake you will also improve and that is a blessing in itself.

So stop crying over the pathetecity of life, grow up and look at the brighter more mature side of life,relationships , work or whatever the hell bothers you so frequently.

Syeda Fatima, 17

The Negative

The Negative

Sometimes its better without the light on
Darkness doesn’t care
Of what you’re feeling
Or how your day has gone
Darkness doesn’t care!

Meaningless words need not b repeated
Meaningless life need not b liven
Negative is positive
Sad is pleasing
Happiness unwanted
Smiles deceiving

Take my hand they said
Hold on!
Don’t let go.
But what if u want to Be left alone?
Left in your sad world
Left to be free
Left a dead soul……..

Death can be fun
Because there will be no life!
Death can be fun

No need to roll no dice!

Syeda Fatima,17

sometimes....

sometimes....

Sometimes its better to shut the fuck up
Keep ur opinions to urself
Try not to work ur thought into words
It causes unnecessary hate

Sometimes its good to lie
Healthy I must say
Who knows what future has for you
Its better when it’s fake

Plasticity in the atmosphere can be nice
It’s all about looking from the right angle
Everyone appreciates nature
But everyone also appreciates property.

Syeda Fatima, 17

I want to fall in love again......

I want to fall in love again

I feel good today.

a today that came after a long time,

life suddenly seems perfect too

i want to fall in love again.

The flowers seem to be pretty,

beautiful after a long time

their smell suddenly seems perfect too

i want to fall in love again.

The sky is clear,

crystal after a very long time,

the clouds seem to be perfect too

i want to fall in love again.

The smiles are genuine,

bright after a very long time

every mood seems perfect too,

i want to fall in love again.

When words never said are spoken,

when this dress looks pretty now!!

thoughts seem to untangle themselves

no one seems to be down,

all thats needed on this perfect feeling

is another strong feeling i've felt-

i want to fall in love,

i want to fall in love again.....

Syeda Fatima, 17

SCRIPT

I wish life was a skit,
With props, and costumes and a script.

I wish we would all have dialogues,
All prepared by the lord.

We would speech them eloquently,
Like they were practiced with no mercy.

I’d never feel bad for what I’d say,
‘Cause it would all just be a play.

I wouldn’t think twice before any action,
‘Cause to me it wouldn’t matter- the reaction.

Everything would be right,
The murder, the tears, the mothers plight.

For we would be actors, and the world a stage,
And no matter what we’d be on the same page.

A scripted life would be amazing,
Something planned, and appeasing.

But then again, this life
Would not have meaning only lies.

No true feelings, no true love
With everyone wearing their gloves.

It would be better bare handed
And leaving no emotions stranded.

Being true to oneself and ones soul
We would be happy not playing roles.

Every word would then have value,
With much to share, our loves due.

We would say we love and cry,
We would say we hate n die.

A script is nice and fun to do,
But maybe in school times without a clue!


Syeda Fatima, 17

thot of the day archive

1st june: "you can never say you've tried everything and give up, cos there's always room for hope"

2nd june: everytime you fall pick up something.

3rd june: "everything has limits and they're difffrent for everyone but when you're in love try to understand the limits of your partner" - Syeda Fatima

4th june:"when you love the whole world is within you and there is no death" -short story 'actress' by iilya ehrenburg

6th june: "someones sarcasm could be your weakness to accept reality"- Syeda Fatima.

8th june: "its one thing to fall in love again, but its incredible to fall in love again with the same person!!..... Syeda Fatima

9th june :"Jokes don't have to be funny to be laughed at, You hav to be a fun person with a sense of humor!!"
Syeda Fatima

10th june: "never expect it's the alcohol of life" - Syeda Fatima

25th june: "never be discouraged by others achievements, they might be feeling the same about you!! "
Syeda Fatima ,17